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#1 Posted : 12/26/2019 9:35:52 AM

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Hello Guys

I grew up in an unhealthy environment and had a life full of depression, feelings of inferiority and weakness, social ineptitude and isolation, unemployment, addiction to the wrong kind of drugs and alcoholism. Recently things are going uphill, thanks among other things to spirituality and psychedelic drugs. LSD gives me many insights about myself, even if they aren't as lifechanging and persistent as i wished they were.

DMT is different, most trips were rather unpleasant. There was always this aggressive shadow after me, don't know if entity is the correct term, it had no form or personality, but it did feel like something separate from me with the sole intention of attacking me. I learned to face this thing and when i do it, it often just dissolves. I never managed to have a breakthrough, though. On higher doses, i'm often overwhelmed and can't manage to take a second hit. Hopefully i'll be able to overcome this obstacle too, maybe with the help of the dmt-nexus, and get some help in my personal development from DMT too.

I think these should be the most important things about me for an introduction. After always being alone on my psychedelic journey, i'm looking forward to finally share my experiences, learn from others and hopefully become part of the community.
 

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#2 Posted : 12/28/2019 4:16:47 PM

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Welcome! Big grin Maybe you should check out changa. It pulls you in a bit slower, and it is a lot more peaceful than straight DMT.
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#3 Posted : 2/14/2020 11:24:01 AM

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Welcome to the Nexus!

Spirituality and psychedelic drugs can def be very transformative. I find that another essential part of that equation is to also have healthy habits, like vigorous exercise, good nutrition, sleep.

If you feel your negative past still affects you, maybe finding someone who can help dealing with the psychological struggles can be good too. It could be a professional help, or maybe just someone who you trust and that can give you good feedback and a different perspective to your issues.

Regarding your dark entity experience, if you haven't read yet, check this and this out. I find that often the darkness we see outside is just a reflection of some inner conflict we are dealing with inside, and once we can raise ourselves into a new level of personal development consciousness, that darkness dissapears, stops being a problem or directly becomes our ally, like the Medusa's head being used as a weapon, or all the "taming the wild animal" analogies/images in alchemy. Jung's work on the integration of the shadow is very interesting.

Im not sure if every single entity is just a reflection of ourselves, who knows, there may be independent entities in unexplored dimensions or any infinite number of hypothesis of what reality is, but either way I feel that ultimately we are part of Everything, like a particle of God in a sea of Love, so there's nothing to really fear. Entities cannot touch our divinity, and for that we can be stronger than any challenge. Or at least that's what I have told myself and worked well during some very difficult experiences.

Have you also considered oral DMT instead? I find it lends itself better for personal development, though some vaped DMT exploration can be positive too in some moments.
 
 
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