You wrote this in coatls thread that was shut down which should be shut down but anyway:



Damn man I am not even thirty and I already feel like that hahaha!

But if you like what you are doing even if it takes you from those you love it should offer consolation. I have many friends who stayed at home and they are bored as fuck half the time. I have many friends who I don't see much but still keep in touch with but at least I know they are living life too. When you meet its that much cooler and more important. If you plan things right and execute them right there are always possibilities.

When I first discovered mushrooms I had a close group of a few friends to trip with..we were all facinated with psilocybin..one of them is an amazing guitar player..like seriousily fucking amazing..he had all kinds of pedals and everything and we'd set everything up and eat large doses always over 3 grams and make incredible music.

We had ideals about the future and for a while we were like a group mind..we would sit in circles and smoke joints and watch over each other while exploring salvia and make art about out trips...driving around BC camping at various beaches finding new skim and surf spots..

I miss those days..but they all went on to do other things and stopped tripping and started doing coke and drinking alot..lots of mdma but not the same.

The only one of my old friends who I am still close with is my best friend..and we always make sure to have a few good trips every year so i am thankful for that.

A few summers ago me and him took off to vancouver island with our surfboards and tents and some money, lots of weed and mushrooms and lived in those tents in tofino all summer surfing every day and tripping alot at night..discovered LSD there..man I will never forget that summer.

wow!....sounds like an epic summer!

I just found this thread.

Anyway Yes Burnt you may be ahead of your time Brother Yes I agree I would not have wanted to stay in my home town for life, I would have missed many things many good things and learning experiences. I always intended to see more than my limited early perspective in fact after high school I flipped a coin, on side was California the other Florida. Florida it was I packed my clothes and a few other items I could fit inside my two seater turbo sports car and hit the road to Florida with no plan or prospects other than to see and do something new. I was able to find a job at a Aerospace firm working as a Research & Development engineering technician building prototypes for the forward looking in far red imaging system or FLIR project for the military this devices allows one to see past the horizon and was a major advancement in technology back in the mid eighties.

So I like you have no regrets as I would never have been able to find a job like that back home but there is most definitely a trade off involved.

Back in the old days you could find a job in your home town and if you worked there long enough you would be a excellent provider for your family and a upper middle class citizen. Its a bit of a shame those days are over and have been for some time, our time is one of Urban Sprawl without home towns at least that is how it is here in the US. But yes its all good even if it does not always seem so. Ha!

Peace
MV

I lived at home until I was 20... never lived away from home before that...

Then I packed up literally everything I had into my tiny car, and drove 500 miles north across the Canadian border to live. It was the best thing I EVER did for myself.

It was rough in the beginning... but when I look back at pictures of myself, I just think, wow!

I would probably be a self-righteous alcoholic living alone with lots of cats and eating way too much fried Chinese food.

I am so much healthier now, mentally, physically, spiritually... there definitely weren't the opportunities for growth in my home town that I desperately needed as a person.

I do have a few friends that I see from time to time, and we always pick up where we left off. Interestingly, all of them left our home town, too. It was 15 minutes away from another town nicknamed, "The Armpit of the Earth."

from "Thus Spoke Zarathustra," by Friedrich Nietzsche:

I must read that book.

My best friend from my teens lives the other side of the country, but we still see each other every month or so, and go on adventures sometimes. The city in which I live is half full of foreigners so some good friends have moved back home. The more interesting places you go, the more interesting people you meet. Yes, sometimes a life away from your hometown can have lonely moments, and sometimes I think it's sad how good friends of mine live in different countries now, but I would never swap it to have stayed... I have little in common with my childhood friends from the village school anymore, and I don't think many stayed anyway. I accept that I do not fit in in the normal world, and now I'm glad of it.