Hello everyone, this is my first post but I've been reading DMT-nexus for a long time, this is changing lives, thank you all for your patience and wealth of information, you help pave a safer path for the new psychonauts.
I had a "successful" extraction in my 2nd attempt, first one was a waste but great learning experience, in the 2nd I had close to 0.720gm, and following this I took a week to prepare mentally/emotionally for the launch (as if one can).
A bit of my previous experience: I've had a few LSD and mushroom experiences before with one ego dissolution and experienced an unbelievable awe, that words can't explain it. also I use weed weekly and been trying to quit it completely. My psychedelic trips are usually 6 months apart, always very respectful and with self improvement goals.
So time came for THE day of launch, I invited a friend to trip with me. This is a guy who claims to see spirits since he was 6yo, he doesn't do drugs much as he says it can enhance his connections in a bad way, he had only a couple of mushrooms experience but both high doses in the desert where in one he met entities, and he approached DMT with no fear at all.
Me on another hand, spent the week thinking of it, feeling butterflies in the stomach and very anxious.
A couple of days before launch day, I had a few low dose experiences to get my feet wet, and been trying to increase the dosage slightly, I personally think this is the wrong approach, but I couldn't lower my anxiety and even on the low dose I was pushing through my fears.
on THE day had no weed, no caffeine, not nothing for the day, but I took 75mg LSD which helped me a lot, my friend didn't take anything, he tried a low dose of DMT first and then he wanted to go for a breakthrough.
Set and setting was amazing, full of love and understanding and respect as well. Good calm music (Above and Beyond - Flow State).
After 3 unsuccessful attempts to break through, smoking from a small glass pipe, and waiting about 1 hour between each attempt. I told him we should double the amount of DMT and go for it, we were wasting so much until that point, we might as well try wasting a big dose to end the day.
So the pipe was now loaded with about .060gm, plus remaining of previous dmt loads.
My friend goes, he gets lot more smoke through the pipe this time, he took 3 big hits and a small 4th and he was gone, I watched him lay back and just surrender. I took a hit after him, small and just sat there meditating, he was taking very long time to come back, my 1 hit was almost wearing off, so I thought I'd take one more while waiting for him.... Well...
At this point there was so much DMT boiled and splattered around the pipe bowl that I turn it side ways to heat the blobs and saw one big blob, that blob made cracking noises and turn into a beautiful cloud of smoke. I didn't think much about I just took it all in one hit, oh I felt in my throat and lungs that this was a big one. then I thought I better keep going, so went for the 2nd and was almost as big as the first, but I backed down the 3rd hit...
I lay back and stared at the ceiling for a few seconds while seeing lots of patters that looked like flowers with 4 petals, repeating itself endlessly, I had seen this before and thought this trip would be just that.
As I stare at one point in the ceiling basically trying to meditate and not fight the experience, things changed quickly, the ceiling either opened up or this visuals covered my field of vision, basically the ceiling was gone.
In front of me was a metal wall with a metal door, looked like a wall you'd see inside the spaceship from star wars, it looked galactic if that means anything.
The door opened itself and revealed a big deep black void that looked like a dark worm hole with infinite depth, scary, and what I can only describe as 3 presences or entities approached through this door. I think I could see them, but it was like a bad connection, I'd see their silhouette from time to time, but I could feel their presence all times.
I never saw them in details, I could tell they had heads torso, long head, and on top of the head, a shape as if they were wearing crowns.
They made me feel so welcome, and they communicated something that made me laugh hysterically. They said that I was just another person who knew how to get to that portal, but only to stare at it, and that right now there are thousands of people staring at the portal and they just won't cross it, but these entities understood and had patience or compassion for us, but they also expressed a funny way to look at it like, "you've come so far to stare at the door.... No judgement but... just pointing it out".
I couldn't stop myself from laughing, I thought I was part of a cosmic joke that was known to everyone on that side, but the nice thing is that I could laugh at it as well, because it was all ok!
My friend at this point, back from his trip was waiting and watching me, he said he heard me sounding like a mix of moans, smiles and weird hickups sounds.
As the laugh faded I was overwhelmed by a feeling of connection with all the other newbies who were there, just staring at a door. Some were even so content to just go and stare at the door. I could glimpse into what it was like for them, as if I could briefly experience their consciousness and some were present there so happy and they knew they'd probably never cross that door, others were still trying to get the courage for it.
I felt like I am in this group of people who know the best secret in the world, and along with them, we grab popcorn we make a journey but only far enough to sit and stare at what would be the beginning of everything... It reminded me of the movie Narnia.
I new it was a matter of time until I'd return, I was also filled with gratitude for the experience and I communicated to these 3 presences, how thankful I was that they've came this way, this far towards reality to give me that experience and made me feel welcome, I was so humbled and so grateful and I cried, at this point I realized I was crying in reality as well. I told them, that it was still important for me to feel safe in this reality but that I understood what had just happened and I could only thank them for this. They made me know they were glad for my gratitude.
The last thing I said to them was, "it doesn't matter how bad or weird life and reality gets, it is comforting to know that there is a realm where I can tap into, for a mystical, spiritual experience, full of love and understanding where I can renew hopes and look for moral guidance". I felt so fortunate, so awake.
With this last message I started to move backwards and things starts to fade, my ceiling was present again, moving and swirling but it started to look more solid and more dense and movements were slowing down.
I stayed still for another 4 to 5 minutes with tears in my eyes, just thinking of what I had just experienced. Honestly I questioned the whole thing, wondered if my friend would laugh at my story or would people even believe this, but one thing I was sure, the power of the experience was undeniable, it was independent from me and I was interacting with something that I had no control over it, it felt so real for an hallucination and I am still trying to process it, often with doubts. This wasn't a breakthrough but powerful.
That was the last experience of the night for us, my friend was very happy with his last experience although he didn't break through. We will definitely get a bong, for next time. We wasted enough DMT already.
I am a step closer and much more confident... Also very nostalgic about the whole thing, I wonder if I'd ever go back to the same place because it just felt soooo good that I already miss it.
Thank you in advance for reading this long story, this is not what I thought my first post would be, but at lest there was a comic note to it at least for me!
I hope you enjoy it too.
Safe travels.