hello everybody,
i have smoked DMT 3 times. to give a quick summary: the first time i was extremely nervouse, and shocked out of my mind after the first hit, i saw my girl and father dissolving infront of me, and as i layed back, closed my eyes, the heavy visuals kicked in, and i felt as i was trapped in a dimension of crazy patterns, and i thought to myself i would never do this again (my ego couldnt comprehend). this lasted for only about 30 seconds and i relaxed and enjoyed the ride and felt a white light sorround me and i had a smile on my face i could not resist for the rest of the trip. i felt at ease and my whoel energy was floating.
the 2nd trip, i was blasted immediatly into the geometric dimensions, no ego interfering, i kind of felt like i was with the energy of the patterns, i had a ecstatic feeling, total comfort, total love, as soon as i felt coming back to our human reality i took another big hit because i didnt want to leave the dimension i was in. i kind of felt like i was safe like in my mothers womb. this was the most profound trip out of the 3, i had a smile on my face while slowly coming back to our human reality i could not control. i wanted to go back to that dimension and didnt want to be in the human dimesion. as soon as i was back, i told my loved ones that all we fuss and worry about has no reason, we should love life, and i felt as i had no worrys about death because we would just go back to our main energy source.
the third and last trip....i took the 4 biggest hits i have taken so far, i was blasted right back into the geometric shape dimension, this time i had a short lasting experience that some of the patterns took on face type shapes and were telepathically luring me on. but i couldnt fully let go for some reason, this went back and forth for about 3 times, and i felt the need to swallow and make sure i was still connected to my body, right after i fetl a grate sense of ease come upon me which i had before in the 2 trips prior. this time i was dissapointed i didnt let go fully for whatever reason. also what was different this time...was that i acually felt my human senses coming back, and i was slowly coming back to the huamn reality from the outside. difficult to explain. ALSO what was different, was that this time i was glad to be back in my body, and i thought to myself, this human reality is the biggest gift the universe ever gave us. we are acually allowed to ACT as the universe, the universe gave us this body which we can interact with, love with, taste, feel, hear, speak, and smell with.
now my question is...from those experiences above, would anybody classify any of these as breakthrough? i have stopped chasing after anything. after my dmt trips i am truly grounded and i can truly say I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING!!!! I DO NOT KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THIS COSMOS. All i know is that they were great experiences, and its lovely to have the chance to live in this body, and no day is guaranteed. i lost my fear of death, because i feel (but do not know) that my energy will stay. If you put a title or name something as breakthrough or enlightment, you kind of put a limit to it in my opinion. I just think that dmt, our whole energy, this whole cosmos is boundless and we as humans cannot grasp it all. all i am doing from now on is just continuing on the spiritual path and see what happens to me.
after me last trip i have had meditations sessions, where i was in full energy, no body mode, in a black boundless space, pure energy, laying on my side before i went to sleep, just concentrating on my breath and keeping a distance between my body, and my mind. I have had a lucid dream this week, where i had a sudden shift of concousness where i was fully aware i was dreaming.
now i have been meditating for around 5 years now on a daily basis. i have been in slight touch with something higher than my mind an body several times before my dmt trips. i feel that since my dmt trips, my meditations have been deeper in a sober state, and also whilst using cannabis to meditate.
now to my question....before taking dmt, my thought or expectation of a breakthrough was that you smoked it, lay back, and you have NO VISUALS, but beeing in the middle of a black universe, no light, no body, not a single thought or breath and not even conciouse that you are in any sorts alive. now that im reading my own words its funny because on dmt you feel more alive than you do in our human reality, and your body doesnt really exist anyhow on the trips.
are dmt trips maybe more MIND BLOWING for people who do not meditate as they have no past experience with higher energy?