I did another high dose of DMT last night, I've taken to doing prolonged doses on the vape pen.
So I take 5 or 6 hits, then carry on taking 3 or so every couple of minutes to keep me in the state for longer periods of time.

The first part of the tripping was typical psychedelic, bright colourful geometry, playful, cartoon like almost.. Quite trippy and enjoyable the parts you experience on lower doses before break through, then it changed and took me somewhere else.

In this instance I found myself ( again ) in this "Angelic" realm, please note I am not religious, but that's the best way to describe it.. it seems like the after life. White golden light, and a feeling of higher consciousness, and divine energy.
This time was different instead of looking at other beings that you could mistake for Gods or Angels.
I found myself looking through the eyes of one of the "angels" for want of a better word, beings made more of white golden light that seem very high in consciousness, not religious, but highly evolved in spirit.
I then had the realisation that this being was myself, I could feel and touch this spirit body as if it were real.
Then I was really confused because I thought there were multiple me, maybe I have some kind of twin self in another dimension. Then it came to me that no, that was me.. the real me, my spirit. I felt my body, my shoulders and chest and seem to "remember" who I was, that I had forgotten from being born in this body. Like somehow I don't need to be here but chose to be, and that other realm is my actual home that I would return to after dying.
I was this noble creature, strong and pure..I looked angelic like, almost like a white golden statue it was so strong, beautiful looking. So beautiful it made me cry, I felt this sudden shame and a feeling of being sorry for some of the things I've done in the past that were not noble, and apologised to myself in tears crying... and that I had forgotten myself.
Needless to say the effect wore off and I came back to reality, and now I am confused.

I don't know if that was a real experience or just a crazy hallucination that's just complete fantasy.
All I know is it felt completely real, it felt like I just woke up and found reality for the first time since being born in my body here.. It was a surreal, dramatic experience that I don't know how to process properly.
I wasn't expecting DMT to give me that type of experience, where it seemed to show me reality, but it's nothing I could imagine or would expect.. I was in shock at the experience. It was too intense, I broke down crying after.

Am I alone here, or have others had similar experiences?

I personally believe these experiences are real. Not just crazy hallucinations.

I have cried my eyes out after powerful experiences. Tears of joy and gratitude. I rarely cry and certainly rarely cry for joy. It feels like a needed purge of emotions when this occurs. The first couple of times this happened to me I felt like I was broken as the tears felt as if they were being forced out of my eyes.

I remember these feelings of joy and gratitude! They can be tapped any time I am feeling out of place or become out of balance in any form. Remembering these emotions is very empowering. I feel connected to something much larger than myself. I feel connected to it all!

I give my gratitude for this life. I do what I can to express this gratitude back into the world. It feels good to do the right thing. It feels good to bring joy into someone else's life. I wish I could give these feelings I have felt to everyone in the world. It's powerful medicine!

Thanks for sharing you experiences with us! Keep on keepin on! The road gets even weirder around the bend.

A crazy hallucination is real. The fact of the crazy hallucination. The fact that it happened means its real. Everything that ocurrs in this world belongs to this world, hence imagination is a fact; the fact that you and I imagine. This doesnt mean what we imagine really happens in the world, but that we really do imagine. Hence imagination is real.

Hi HyperJester.

Thank you sharing your experience. It certainly sounds like a profound breakthrough, and an extremely impactful event in your life. You are not alone, in that many all over the world share such emotionally moving experiences, however, yours was unique to you, and the path that you take. I relate closely to this feeling of confusion, as it accompanied a spontaneous OBE that I experienced several years ago.

I would like to share my thoughts on your experience from the perspective of life in simulated reality, and I offer these for your consideration, respectfully.

The emergence into alter realities, while under the influence of an entheogen, or any other consciousness altering substance, is to experience an altered form of the simulation system, that presents to us our reality. The specifics of what you see, hear, and feel, is that which is tailored to expedite the development of your metaphysical being. For some they see Jesus, others see aliens, and more commonly to those frequenting this forum, they see the intricate web of realities that can only be described as "hyperspace". It is a highly stimulating event. What I have come to know, is that the experience is of a specific theme. The theme, i.e the specific contents of the experience, is presented into mind via a complex intelligent metaphysical system, which forms the artificial construct that we perceive as reality.

I am very interested to hear that you felt what you call your spirit body, which lead to a remembering of something you were once aware of. A deeply profound happening. I once felt warmth with a part of my being I never knew existed. The metaphysical science behind this experience is beyond human comprehension for now, but it does relate to experiencing a consciousness state far advanced from what we are currently capable, using a familiar theme, and engineered by an extraordinary higher intelligence.

The emotional side of your trip, which was also felt strongly after your altered state had subsided, is something I know very well, and can be felt powerfully. Emotion is a complex topic, but I understand these feelings (consciousness states) are altering - vital to our evolution, and compliment the experience we have received, in a developmental manner. For now my understandings on such matters are wholly elemental.

The experience of God is indeed enough to leave one an emotional wreck, but we are soon comforted with higher consciousness states. The process is one of higher moral intelligence.

I feel the realisation of wrong past actions, and the shame felt as a result, is of utmost importance, and would be at the forefront of my mind.

Connor

Things like this are open to so much interpretation but just through what I've learnt, I would put money on it being some kind of past life experience, a part of remembering who and what you are and the journeys you've had.

Also, I believe that all religions are real through collective consciousness, almost a placebo effect on the universe, or that if you think it it will become true. The universe just seems to be creations of thought. You'll see for example that the religions/practices of different locations in the world all reflect their culture. Ultimately it all reaches the same thing. There was an interesting concept I read/saw somewhere that described it as being like blind people touching an elephant. They all reached the same source but just a different part of it and thought this part to be the only truth.

Either way what an experience! I find that writing and reflecting on the experience is very beneficial and helps you to a) learn more, pull out info you might have missed, b) remember in the future and put yourself back there.

I would not try to dismiss the experience as a hallucination right away. I would also not rush to try to get back to how things used to be. Getting back to he old and comfortable patterns can be tempting but may not always be what we truly need.

I would look into the experience and take time to integrate it. For examole, are there any small steps you can take to become more Noble in everyday life? When you take these steps, do you feel closer to the being you saw yourself as? Or do these changes make no difference? Do the feelings go away.

I think time to reflect on this may give some answers over time. There is no need to try to figure it all out at once. Take small steps and see what happens. It may go away over time or you may find adding small changes to your life that over time make you feel more connected with your higher self. When these feelings come, I think it is best to not fight them - that can become overwhelming, instead become an observer and simply watch their power.

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