hello DMT-Nexus
i am a new member trying to set my roots in around here so i thought i would do the typical introduction thing.

i am a long time user of many drugs but went on a big break about 7 years ago due to life commitments etc. somewhere around 1+ years ago i decided it was enough and i could continue with my fascination and curiosity that had dominatd my life before, but this time i was going to do it right. i started straight back into the only thing i knew, which was uncontrolled quantities and a lack of care, but i started to have more respect for the substances i was using. since this lockdown i have had time to really reflect and understand things that were too complicated to understand while my life was non-stop. the result is a new me, a me that wants to grow his own sources and be solely responsible for his own path. which brings me here..

i have signed up for a few similar forums recently and taken it upon myself to learn to look after myself, rather than buying unknown substances from people i dont truly trust.
the results have been great. so far i have started to connect with nature in a special way that i did not know could exist, which has payed back ten fold!
it all started when i startd growing my own vegetables. i gained a relationship with them that was unexplainable. within two weeks i was growing some of my own medicines and quickly learning about the rest.
i plan to be completely self sufficient and i want to learn about all the things that i skipped past while blindly doing as much fun stuff as possible when i was young.

my experiences over the last few decades have been extremely valuable, but now i am ready to truly understand it in its rawest form. i am hoping to find guidence here and hopefully at some point in the future, pass that guidance forward.

anyway, thats my basic story. i look forward to meeting you all in the forums! <3

Welcome to the Nexus!

Just out of curiosity, what kind of vegetables have you been growing? I've been wanting to grow something for a while now, but choosing the plant is difficult... I've considered datura (for the wacky dreams, mostly), peyote, salvia, etc. Ideally it would be relatively small and not reek like a skunk in heat but also be psychotropic without needing a ton of it.

hi takanuva1999
i meant literal vegetables, like potatoes, tomatoes, etc
but i do also grow peyote, san pedro and bolivian torch as far as alkaloids go.
peyote is very small, but has very little mescaline content so not really recommended for recreational use, i just grow it for the love of it.
bolivian torch is the best out of those as far as alkaloids go, but its not small and you would probably want a few if you intend to use it for the trip. for me, in an ideal world, i would have maybe 10 growing at the same time, all 60-100cm tall (to harvest 30-40cm when they hit around 100cm).

im not that far yet though. i recently started to grow them, along side other cacti with no alkaloid content, mostly just for the fun of doing it, but no doubt at some point in my future i will reap the benefits of my love for them

Hello PedroSanchez,

nice story and welcome to the nexus.
I believe fun/joy don't lead to happiness.
Meaning lead to hapiness, you need fun too but fun shouldn't be the focus.
Drugs could be a tool, they could be missused like all tools, but they can help you too

thank you for the welcome.
i agree, the fun/joy has not lead to happiness. my new outlook has opened my mind beyond my previous understanding. i now find fun in the more pure things in life.
although i feel like my time using these tools as fun has prepared me for this point in my life. it has taught me to open my mind to the effects slowly (i was careful when i was having fun, slowly upping my doses). but it never really moved me forward.

it was actually after trying DMT for the first time (or few times) a few years ago that opened my mind. my first breakthrough changed my life. it was only since this lockdown stuff that i actually had time to explore it.

i cant believe i used to waste trips walking around urban areas giggling at everything
my last acid trip (1st since my "new me" gave me some takeaway knowledge that i havent taken from a trip for about 15-20 years. i now believe that every trip should give me something to take away, otherwise it was not really worth it.
i still love the "fun", of course, but it seems unimportant to me now, at least compared to the learning i can do with these tools.

thanks for the reply, and making me feel at home