NN-DMT #4 - 40mg with 'mekong' changa mix (1/1 passion flower, blue lotus) smoked through large beaker bong

I think was my 5th smoked NN-DMT experience & my strongest yet. Due to a sub-optimal smoking method, previously I've only experienced what I imagine from other reports is the 'waiting room', this was very different.

It felt powerful & profound but the crazy thing is that for the most part of it I have no recollection of! Whatever it was left barely any trace in my memory, just vague impressions of what happened. Even so, it felt deeply meaningful & nourishing.

There was no waiting room or a breakthrough that I remember, I don't remember the DMT coming on at all. I just became aware that I was somewhere very white and spacious. If felt like I'd been there for a while, I'm not sure how long. I was communicating with other people/entities (I don't remember anything about them, what they looked like etc just the impression I was with them and the emotional tone of the interaction). The impression I have is that I was communicating with them, I don't know about but it felt very comfortable & familiar. I felt like I belonged there & what I was experiencing was a normal, unremarkable part of everyday existence. The interaction I was enjoying felt totally unself-conscious & unguarded. It felt deeply nourishing & just the trace feeling it left in me felt deeply meaningful, but at the same time, the interaction itself seemed totally mundane, like a polite conversation.

Then I had a recollection I was from a different place. This reality here, but I was 'this' reality was I had no memory of. I had a sense that there were things that concerned and troubled me in 'this' life but they felt so distant I couldn't recall them.

It felt important that I remember what my life here was like & I tried, but it all seemed so distant & vague that I couldn't recall anything about them. It was like I had an intuition I wasn't from the place I was experiencing but had total amnesia about actual reality!

In the act of trying to remember, I had hyper-vivid visualisations, these I could remember, it was like there were two boundaries or planes of existence squishing up against each other, it was as if on one side there was this reality and on the other the DMT space. In between was an object that looked like an eye, but it was fluid & changed shape as the two boundaries which were moving pressed against each other. Although it was an eye it didn't look unpleasant, when I was in the act of trying to remember this is what could see. When in this space I had no conception of the 'realities' on either side. Also when was trying to remember I was aware of unpleasant physical senseations form my body, maybe coldness, tension, nausea? I'm not really sure just some undefined unpleasantness.

Gradually I came back to the feeling of being in my body & in the room again. I had an incredible after glow, I don't really know what happened but it left me feeling great like I'd been on a long holiday!

I'd had some classical music playing in the background, my friend who was sitting with me told me that at one point I'd started playing the violin with my hands in time with the music. Nether us know how to play, but my friend said it looked so good he was wondering if I did actually know how to play the violin! Bizzare!

Anyway, this was my strongest experience so far, we have been apprenticing ourselves on smaller doses (just freebase - no harmalas) to get used to the intensity of the experience, this is the first time we'd used a changa mix. Also until now we'd not found a good method to smoke.

The fact that I don't remember the main content of the experience is interesting to me. I wonder how common this is and if I might remember more with a different changa? Maybe with caapi or some harmalas extracted from Syrian Rue. I am also wondering about using mugworth in the changa mix, or drank as a tea before hand as I've read mugwort can helps you to remember.

I'd be interested in hearing any advice or feedback, or to know it others have had similar experiences.

Thanks