PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: calm
Setting (location): in bedroom sitting floor with pillows surrounding me
time of day: 4pm, daylight shining through window
recent drug use:
last meal:

PARTICIPANT
Gender: Male
body weight: 88 kg
known sensitivities:
history of use:
first time ever using dmt
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): white dmt
Dose(s): best guess
Method of administration: vaped

EFFECTS[/u]
Duration: (x hours) 1 hour
First effects: 6 seconds
Peak: 5 seconds to 15 minutes
Come down:45 minutes
Baseline:

Intensity (overall):4
Evaluation / notes: very intense

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4)2
Implesantness: (0-4)3
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 2.5 this was the most intense visual experience for me but i think i held it back from happening.


REPORT[/u]


This is what i like to call my "What If i woulda"

After taking a hiatus from psychedelics for the past 8 years with a strange turn of events over the past year of my life I felt it was time i tried the spice. So i jumped down the rabbit hole of information about this subject reading all the information i could to prepare myself for a pure experience into the vast unknown or "My Last Frontier" sorta.

Following the golden brick road others laid down before me (thanks to some of the fine people here) and ba-da-bing ba-da-boom, i somehow had some of this great sacred substance i had been reading about for the past 8 months.

Now it was the time, i put a bunch of pillows in my room and threw them on floor just in case i fell over. I grabbed my laptop and put on tron legacy's sound track. Picked up my homemade vaporizer and tasted the fine mothballish taste that was exactly how i had imagined it would taste like. While that was happening i remember thinking for a spilt second that everything i read told me this would come on a lot fasssssssuughhgh. This intense visuals onset, more intense than anything i had ever done. At this moment i felt very uncomfortable, having my mind just instantly blasted into the peak of the hardest trip i had ever experience was something i was very thrown off by. My eyes are wide open i am trying to comprehend how i got from there to here, Then here comes the Daft Punk pulling me back while also firing me up to take another hit. I managed to get in two hits total for this experience ... i notice out of the bottom of my vision one of my pillows was breathing or moving up and down in a slow but rhythmic way as i looked down i started to realize it was the head of an octopus staring up at me it had two eyes( i cant remember if they were open or shut) and the big ole forehead ( it did take me a second to grasp that it was something i had never encountered in any trip), i didnt see any tentacles which i thought was strange it was just its head. The area under his eyes was puffed up like he was laying on top of something to make his pillow-skin raise up higher than the rest of the face. I was in a moment of astonishment but with that came a little bit of fear towards this face that i didnt know. To me it did not feel malicious but it kind of creeped me out but i killed that thought with it was just a chance my pillow took a shape like that before hand so lets call it a happy accident. I notice something moving in a way i can only describe as an intentional movement to bring the focal point of my vision or observance to, the strange thing to me about this is my visuals were firing off everywhere but this one moved differently. i direct my attention to it and on the body within my dresser is a humanoid with multiple arms moving around, sitting indian style , my dresser is wood grain for texture reference. I knew exactly what this thing was in my dresser and my fear kicked up a little bit more and my excitement or amazement of this newly introduced being. ( it was one of hindu gods that i knew nothing about before that day all i had seen were pictures and i never gave much interest in learning about any of them. I ended up tuning in to the arm movements almost as if i was caught in a trance, it didn't put off any malicious signs to me, it seemed more graceful and helpful or inviting, the thing that ended our little weird bonding moment is when i tried to look away and it brought my focal point back to this little circular object it was holding in its hand, and the part that really made me feel uncomfortable is when its hand went 2 or 3 feet outside of my dresser to bring my vision into this object. If i didnt explain earlier enough the entity's skin or body was the same texture as my dresser so for it to reach outside of that by a substantial amount was extremely uncomfortable to me reason being i had never experience visuals in a trip quite like that. So i instantly decided to lay back. I start to hear the soundtrack i put on and i start calming down from the experience i just had. No other entities appeared for the rest of the trip. i was staring at my ceiling for pretty much the rest of the time. i had some major life realizations about certain relationships in my life. Which was one of the most awesome things i have ever experienced. I am looking at this white ceiling and there is this object in the room that i have very bitter feelings towards, the object represents this person who i was having personal problems with and its black and it is growing bigger and bigger and i can almost feel it tugging on my head to corrupt my thinking (as in fill me with resentment and hate). But on the other side of the room there is this overwhelming bright white presence (same side of the room the entities were on) giving me the answers to defeat the hate and to comfort the sadness of the entire situation(, making me feel at one with myself. I started to come down shortly after a few more little ahhhhaaaaa moments pass me by. I was a little displeased with not breaking all the way through to another place afterwards.

As soon as i sobered all the way up i looked up hindu gods saw a picture of an elephant god immediately related that to the octopus head i thought i was looking at, so i had an elephant face staring up at me and a multi arms god both from the same religion in my room with me. After evaluating for five months everything that transpired in my first experience i think the entities were maybe inviting me to break through and i held on or the were just trying to distract me from the negative object in my room.

its a jumbled mess of awesomeness

i have tons of Questions about the hindu entities and am curious on if other religious entities appear to other people!

Happy to be here and not on the outside looking in.

Thing i regret doing prior to the first attempt at my last frontier - reading trip reports that said the entities are friendly and also ones that said these are malicious entities, I don't know what they were but i do know they were something i had never experienced before. I believe it would of helped a lot more if i hadn't read such intense experiences with them. On the other hand I really love reading trip reports.


ICYWC
i havent done dmt since
i was alone
i almost choked on the famous moth ball when i laid back

It's a jumbled mess of awesomeness!!!!!!!!!!



I am going to start describing DMT to people this way for now on!