Okay, howdy again. I would like to share some thoughts I have regarding the very special thing that is N,N-DMT.
I have been experimenting with this over the course of the last few years since a 'near death experience' with it's cousin, 5-MEO-DMT saved me from years.of suicidal depression, and addiction. I wish I could say it cured me of those things, but that is an impossibility, I'm afraid, but it did however, remove the possibility of suicide from my life, and placed me on a path that includes dedicating my life to legitimizing psychedelics for use in treatment of these terminal illnesses.
This post is not about that though, just some thoughts that I had from my most recent experiment. Recently, I stumbled across a new acacia confusa extract and the other night, had my first immersive trip with it. For a couple days prior, I had been smoking it in small, sub-breakthrough doses and there is something I noticed. At these smaller dose levels, it would make my environment psychedelic, but not me. By this, I mean that I would have nice visuals, etc, but my thought patterns remained intact. No real introspection, etc. just glistening edges, trails, patterns in the walls and such nice pretty things, as well as a body euphoria. (an amazing body euphoria my partner described as heroin like, at least on the pleasure scale)
I have, very admittedly, been proselytizing DMT over the last couple years, attempting to convince many of my addicted friends of it's potential for healing. However, many, with the exception of one or two very close ones have refused on the fear that it would put then in a terrifying,LSD/psilocybin-like mind loop as a result of years of depression and bad living. I dint think that is an issue with thus particular psychedelic.
So here's the thing. I have a poorly articulated theory that NN-DMT is the endogenous chemical that is responsible for the human spiritual experience that religions are cultural attempts to describe and translate. This other-worldly, higher consciousness is a part of most religions, even those that don't seem particularly'psychedelic'. (When you get into mystical aspects of religions, like sufism, kabalism,gnostic thought, even Solomonic ceremonial majick, and read the texts, these people seem to describe DMT trips-read the Book of Enoch, for example, or parts of the Zohar) On DMT, one is either 'in the realm', or not. They are not analyzing their life and agonizing over shortcomings, failures, and victimizations as could/would occur with other psychs. One is merely high until they are pushed through directly into contact with some higher consciousness and reality. Entity contact, spontaneous healing-(physically and emotionally-)esoteric things like kundalini awakening etc. are dogmatic points of discussion and contention that I'm not trying to describe here, merely this-that DMT is, to my knowledge and experience, singular in this regard-God or bust!
I am, admittedly,a highly spiritual person and have been a 'seeker' the majority of my years. I wonder how much this aspect of my personality has to do with this idea of there being a physical manifestation of spiritual thought and its implications. The universality of the DMT experience coincides with the universality of God, yes, or no? What happens when an atheist takes it? What about someone interested but with no spiritual foundation or even real conception? Even after all my 'seeking', reading, and what I felt to be understanding of 'God', and I feel myself to have a fairly decent knowledge of mystical thought throughout human history, after that first experience, all my concepts of.'God' (feel compelled to put '' around the word) were misguided and akin to conceiving of some solely external fairy-king riding a cloud (though not quite THAT ignorant). The breakthrough experience shattered all that, showing me a hierarchy of divine emanation, from the dispassionate, unfeeling pure mind that told me that I am alone and entirely distant from as human, to ultra-dimensional entities that could be appealed to and even communicated with, comparable to the descending/ascending Sephirah and associated hosts of kabala.
I have elaborations, but don't really want to go on a singular diatribe here, I'm interested in opening a discussion, I promised a trip report, and in leiu, this is it, since I could just describe some pretty patterns and write what has been written. I'm more interested in your ideas concerning this.
Thank you for reading .
Sine experientia nihil sufficienter sciri potest -Roger Bacon
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