I've been increasing my dose gradually over time. This report is from 11.5g Mhrb and 3.5g Syrian Rue.
I was with a giant that sort of looked like apocalypse but white with black highlights and there was a jewel near his wrist that I mistook for a diamond. I didnt say this to him but he corrected my thought and said it is something he created, not natural. Then I tried to create something in my hand using only my consciousness as he instructed and it appeared, glowing, brilliant, glaring so I couldn't see what it was, then the thought of this world being nothing but illusion came to my mind, nothing but the creative will of some consciousness. I was sinking through the floor, reality was melting away. This started the vomiting. Like when neo discovered he's actually in the matrix. I was still with the giant when I noticed myself vomiting and i wondered about myself "does he remember how to vomit?". Then I was thrown into myself in the midst of the purge. Before this all happened I was in deep space looking at this worm, a gigantic energy being with a large, many toothed mouth. I was also this type of creature. We were entangled or entwined with each other. It expected something from me, like it ws expecting me to die. I slipped into a dream world, living many lives, human lives. The dreams were a distraction from the death I didnt want to deal with but each life in the dream world would come to an end, to a death, and I would start all over again, living another life to avoid my death as a space-worm. Worlds and universes were created by my fantasy, by my consciousness. Eventually I realized death was hidden in life. Me and this space worm were the eternal pairing of opposites in a continuous life / death cycle that was not to be feared or loved, it just was. So back to when I created matter with consciousness with apocalypse, I not only was triggered into vomiting by the realization that all the world is unreal, but by the realization that I was not who I thought I was, that I was this alien creature, the energy space worm.
At this dose, compared to the previous 8g mhrb, I lost all ability to distinguish reality from fantasy, the real world from the dmt realm. I've been trying to get to this level, so it's nice to finally be here.
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I've still got to write my own report (still trying to decide how it should be written,
But I feel like I've been trying to get "there" with psychedelics for years, it finally took 3g APE shrooms + 100mg rue extract to take me that far out of reality.
It was awe inspiring, terrifying, and perfect all at the same time.
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I just wrote a report and part of it was this fun game I played with the visuals I didn't go into it to much cause well reading the writing doesn't describe HOW fun it was! But I was able to control basicly a dot in my vision I could make it move left right up down come closer to me or farther away. I could make it bigger smaller what ever just with thinking what I wanted it to do! It changed color eyes open or closed but always remained. The realization that we are part of the creator and a creator in own right is empowering like nothing else!
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TheMemberOne wrote:Surprised no one responded to this. This is so crazy and believable/unbelievable. I don't really know what to say. Just that it's so TRUE. Indeed, very profound experience reported.
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HI. Can you please explain the method of admission. I have those materials lying around for extraction purposes but get the feeling you just ate them...or something ??
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Did I misunderstand, or did you say you ate 11.5 grams of MHRB? I tried a measly 3 grams of wood in a mimosa-butter-and-jelly sandwich just recently and it took me about 15 minutes to get the one piece of bread down. 11.5 grams... that's heroic. I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want a clever signature.
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bismillah wrote:...11.5 grams... that's heroic. And not advised to mimic for people looking out for guidance. I started out with 3 gr and had very good trips and after a year or so I was at my personal limit of 7 gr bark. Friend of mine used 10 on a regular base and finally had to drop dose too, reverse tolerance is real. Don't eat the bark
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