Voidmatrix wrote: maybe even humor if you're so inclined.
That is the finest example of an honest opinion presented softly and respectfully where it is unknown how it may be accepted that I have ever been given..
I would quite possibly find that to be the best place for it.......after some time to process, and confirm my health is not bad after all...
I sometimes get a bit self absorbed and make things too much about me, which takes some from the value of my expression. And character. I realize I've been doing so with this experience, and for now I'm just going to acknowledge it, and finish the saga. I took it to an extreme that few prolly do, and even fewer would share as I have, so I think its worth cataloging here for others to have access to.
I think for now I'm just going to put an update and summary in a new thread under experience reports, and then maybe I'll take some time to recompose the whole adventure from the day I boiled grass from my yard till sometime in the near future, when the humor begins to bloom, and/or some of the deeper meanings and translations morph into something useful. Then if I compose it well enough we could drop it in quality experiences. And referr to it in humor. I know there's a few points that need to be laughed at, thats what makes humility so valuable.. to be able to laugh at something you did that is so ridiculous that others can't help but laugh. With me it dont need to be awkward, I do some outright stupid things sometimes, and I can laugh with everyone that find it amusing while still realizing its not something to laugh about twice.
Everything i say is fictional, I just wanna be cool and fit in.