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cubeananda
#1 Posted : 6/5/2020 7:00:48 PM

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Somehow, after a decade of development, I have observed some atypical features of my neurochemistry and how it governs my behavior.

Some various factors leading to my unprofessional self-diagnosis:

1. I have a late, male family member on my mothers side who spent much of his life managing Paranoid Schizophrenia.

2. I have a history of hospitalization for schizo-affective states, or otherwise schizoid behavior (demonstrated under the influence of research drugs when I was 19)

3. I am 26 and with the, albeit slower, development of my body and brain I'm starting to see how classically my brain does not respond to dopamine properly in some way. I cant pose as if I understand how these receptor systems work beyond an average reading comprehension level in superficial contexts.
However, this development seems to align with the common pattern of males developing schizophrenia at the later stage of body growth and development and its debilitating symptoms but often with some signs being exhibited even in mid-teens. I fit the profile, so to speak.

4. I have smoked on and off for a decade, and I finally began to understand that my addiction to nictone comes in large part from the increase in cognitive ability that I experience. Hypothetically, if I were to have schizophrenia I would be inclined to smoke cigarettes and crave then even more than an average neurotype.


Rightly, anyone should vie for the guidance of trained medical professionals. Trauma-informed therapy and an armory of facts about one's condition are essential to being able to live and contribute to society, in my case.
As a realist, the process of securing healthcare and vetting therapists seems unsurmountable and as such, mind that I have only just taken to reaching out here in earnest.

There is so much stigmatization towards the paranoid and hallucinogenic, and personality shattering effects of schizophrenia that it is a cliche. Between the theory, and my unprofessional opinion, it is clear that life with schizophrenia can be exceedingly painful and anxious. It can also be managed.

Notwithstanding considerable stress which of late has been pushing latent symptoms of this condition into prominence, I did exhibit prolonged periods of basic coping skills and held a job for 3 consecutive years. I smoked like a chimney, and when it came to trade up to a vape I vaped 24/7. Eventually CBD and hemp helped in my case as an anti-psychotic, and anti-anxiolytic. Nevertheless, I now recognize that in my case self-medicating will be insufficient to live out a regular life, if not in cooperation with a professional.

This has led me, at first instinctively, and now intellectually to avoid using psychedelics overmuch aside from maybe lsd once a year for the past handful of years. I really don't want to rely on nicotine but it feels like such a bargain for the benefits. There are too many times, especially in the workplace where the cognitive edge is required to keep my head above water.
I don't wish to be doomed to a statistical life marked by early death due to smoking only because it supplemented a disadvantage I never truly addressed.

I am reaching out here purely because the episodic flashes and glimpses I've seen have given me much understanding and I would like to generate empathy for those who do experience schizophrenia's most grizzly affects. Especially here on a psychedelic forum, where we instinctively must ward off those with these types of conditions even though there is some evidence to suggest that some of the plant pharmacopia can and likely has assisted people (e.g. https://forum.schizophrenia.com/...its-of-peganum-rue/64124 shows anecdotal evidence of Peganum Harmala's therapeutic effect.)

I am curious, and if there is another thread perhaps of relevance I apologize, if other members have experience with schizophrenia and can offer advice for those of us who could use it.

Thank you








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dragonrider
#2 Posted : 6/5/2020 8:13:39 PM

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Hello cubeananda. I'm sorry to hear about your concerns.

The first thing i want to say to you, is that as a person you are definately welcome here. But i don't think it is very likely that you'll find the answers you are looking for, related to schizophrenia or how best to treat this condition, on a site that is dedicated to psychedelic drugs.
Many interesting discussions take place here. And you are more than welcome to join them, but most of us aren't psychiatrists or psychiatric patients, and therefore we lack the expertise or personal experience to be able to give you any usefull advice beyond what is simply common sense.

I don't know why you consider securing healthcare unsurmountable. Maybe it realy is, in your situation. But maybe there are ways, simply unknown to you.

Therefore, to answer these and other questions, it could be helpfull to try to contact organisations specialised in these kind of problems.

I don't know where you live, and what organisations there are, that could be of help to you. But in the information age, it must be possible to find some people in your area, willing and able to help you.

It could be self-help groups of psychiatric and former psychiatric patients, or organisations
Based on charity or voluntary workers.
People who'll have more answers than most of us here.

You are definately not the only person in the world with mental health issues, so there must be ways for you to get the help you need.
 
cubeananda
#3 Posted : 6/14/2020 7:58:18 AM

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thank you very much dragonrider, this is exactly what me and anyone else in my position needs to hear.

Aside from that, to quote Snu Vogelbreinder's opening paragraph of "Can’t psychedelic drugs make you go insane?" from the Garden of Eden
Quote:
Again we enter some turbulent waters, as there is no concrete definition of what constitutes insanity, and definitions of sanity can sometimes seem to define a common kind of insanity or collective mental disorder, when analysed in detail. To make matters worse, most psychiatrists and/or psychologists appear to have little or no real understanding of the mental conditions in which their patients may mostly reside. Schizophrenia, for example, is defined by a wide array of symptoms which can not be consistently diagnosed or defined as one specific disorder, yet many psychiatrists still act as though they know what it is. Their inability, in many cases, to understand the mental state of the patient, and the heavy reliance on ‘antipsychotic’ medications [which usually make matters worse in the long run, and may substitute one psychic aberration for another] are reflected in both the largely unsuccessful results of treatment (see also Farber 1993 and Mender 1994) and the rising incidence of such disorders, which may also be very much a mental reaction to these troubled and hectic times. It should fairly be stated, however, that some people with serious mental disorders may need to rely on psychiatric medication to abate their symptoms, as little else seems to help make their lives liveable. Regardless, such medications should not be regarded as cures, or even necessarily as therapeutic in the long run.


Of note, I feel a relief that is beyond words on day 2 of a harmine regiment.
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