I would also like to thank Gibran2. After my first, failed attempt at this a couple of years ago, I finally tried again with what I consider to be success. I had 64 grams of shredded yellow vine that a friend gave me a couple of years ago. I have been doing, nearly daily, deep work with spice after a couple of years off. The learning and healing have been so profound that I decided it was time to work with the vine, or I was told to. Either way. I took my time and followed the instructions. It is a well written tek. My only question was if I should add more fumaric acid after each boil. I did, but decreased by half each time. When I based and the precip started to fall out, I was so excited. Out of 64g of shredded vine I got about 400mg of very light tan powder. Low yield due to age of vine or beginner technique? I was very happy with the yield. I'm working toward pharma and then Aya, but for now 30mg sublingual with small amounts of vaped spice is just what I need. Thanks again. I love you Gibran2.
My healing: I was in a car accident in July. Neck and back injuries. After initial recovery using physical therapy, pain and problems returned. MRI revealed 6 bulging discs in neck, 5 in lower back. My doctor told me I had to go to pain management. Not a good thing for an ex-heroin addict. I finally relented. I always like getting pills even when I'm not in pain, but the pain has been debilitating. Couldn't wait to cash in the script. I don't go looking on the street anymore. Too much work for no payoff.
Took my first LSD in 25 years 2 weeks ago. Had a great time despite the added pain from shoveling snow. Felt the spice calling the next day.
Next day, massive breakthrough with birth/death/everything simultaneously.
Next day, big LOVE breakthrough. Became GOD.... or remembered that we are all god, as is everything. Interesting for an atheist, I guess.
Then rue/spice. Appointment with Lupita who worked on my back. Rue entity worked on my neck. First entity I ever had stand behind me. Christian archetypes. I didn't reject them, just let them be what they are.
Told to take a break, but that I wouldn't because I'm a silly monkey. I didn't. Got a VERY stern warning. Took a fucking break
Called back.
Vine extract/ vaped spice. More magic. Dimming visuals, but deeper spiritual meaning/connection/healing. Revisiting childhood traumas, current turmoils.
I continued this difficult, but rewarding work over a period of days.
I am walking around, light as a feather. All people are smiling at me and approaching me. More than usual. Got pulled over by a cop who seemed baffled as to why he pulled me over, especially since he picked me out of a cluster of crazily speeding cars. He finally came up with a reason. Actually thrust an "aha!" finger into the air. Warning for no front tag. I think he really just wanted to say hi. He was so happy to see me.
I am super tuned in. People are telling me that I'm psychic. Music flowing from me. Loss of all existential fear. Deep love for EVERYTHING. Accidentally stopped smoking cigarettes. Didn't notice for over a day.
The pain in my back and neck is completely gone.
Years of deep depression and anxiety: GONE. Not alleviated. Gone.
Got my pain med refill prescription at epidural shot appointment I didn't feel that I needed, but was told in hyperspace, I should do anyway. Had the paper in hand. Didn't care. That's a big deal for me. Night before refill day I started to worry that I would go back to the same old cycle.
Vine extract and spice: Calm message: "refill. try your drugs. don't be afraid. you won't like them anymore."
Weeping in gratitude. I finally have a chance to be emancipated from the slow boring slavery of half assed opiate addiction.
Next day: Refill. Usually I don't make it out of the pharmacy parking lot without taking a few. Got home and my wife remarked that I hadn't opened the bag. Later, decided to try 40mg of oxycodone. A good amount for me, that should have elicited a nice buzz. Barely anything... except... my pain started coming back. Felt kind of shitty. Wanted to smoke. I did, but hated it. Gave the pills away to someone who needed them. This is SO huge for me. Thank you.
In other words: Try this extraction. It's easy. It's fun. It can be educational on many levels. Do the work. Forget buying extracts. The work is all part of the healing/learning process.
Buying more vine and rue. Feeling less desire for the spice for now and hope to do deeper work with harmalas.
Aya is on her way. I can feel her coming.
I love you all.
Welcome Home Mister_Niles. We've Been Waiting For You.
"Don't worry. When it happens, you won't be able to not let it do its thing. You won't have the ability to distinguish a pen from a hippopotamus"
- Art Van D'lay